For reasons I won’t mention here – I’m sad and I feel like a failure. Maybe a break and some space will be good? Chad says the time off will be good – I guess I have to take his word for it. But am I really that unobjective? I know I’m emotional, always have, always will be, but I try very hard to distance myself from my emotions when I need to. It must be true – I’m too emotional – more than one person thinks so. I tried so hard to fit in, to do the right thing. Maybe I tried too hard? Just had to get my feelings out – my hurt, my frustration, that feeling of loss, the shame. I’ll be okay, I know, but in the meantime it just hurts.
It just hurts… January 5, 2007